Sissy & Bubba

36

2010-11-14T19:35:00.000-08:00

After the sobering revelation was made to me by my husband that I was now closer to 50 than I was to 20, I must say that so far 36 is looking good. One of the better birthdays that I've had. Not that the other's haven't been, but things were just well-timed.

. . . a weekend day so I could sleep late.

. . . a day Greg was off work.

. . . a Sunday so I was with all my friends and church family. Twice.

. . . the Cowboys actually won. And I cared.

. . . my favorite Starbucks drink delivered by my best friend to wake me up.

. . . an era of Facebook where it reminds friends you never see or haven't seen in years to tell you "Happy Birthday!" All day. :)

. . . an afternoon of laying around and nothing to do.

. . . a day off from working. Well, kinda.

. . . an evening of thankfulness spent at my church's Thanksgiving feast with all my favorite food and as many helpings as my stomach can take.

. . . reminders of my special day by my sweet kids.

. . . generous gifts from special friends and family, knowing exactly what I needed or wanted.

. . . all combined to be reminders of the many undeserved blessings the Lord has given me and wants me to pay forward!

So . . . what does THIS year hold? Only God knows, and I am thankful He has me in a place where I trust His plan and hold on to His sovereign hand. I pray only that He continues to mold me into the servant, wife, mother, friend, daughter, and sister He wants me to be.

"Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows."

James 1:17

Mario and Princess Peach

2010-10-31T13:48:00.000-07:00

. . . Farmer Cunningham. :)

Gracie and Gracie: :)

Wes and Gianna:

My Hero

2010-10-23T11:30:00.000-07:00

I'm always so proud when I am able to share with Greg in his things for work. I went to his annual awards banquet. It was also time for his 10-year pin! Way to go Babe! I love you and am proud of all the lives you touch and SAVE all the time. You amaze me.

The 10 year certificate (years of service didn't make the stage this year . . .

you don't want to hear my opinion on that). :)

Station 5 Crew (-1):

Annual video:

My hero (and me):

Packing Weekend with Bethany Ministries

2010-10-17T10:49:00.000-07:00

After a terrific weekend of visiting with, staying with and learning more about Bethany Ministries with Sherrie, Debbie and Ricky while at our church's Global Missions Weekend, we took advantage of the opportunity to get more involved. We drove down to Kountze, TX and helped pack boxes of medical supplies, clothes, and books that are going to be shipped, God willing, to Zimbabwe, Africa at the end of the year. It was a privilege to get involved and we hope to continue to do so in different ways throughout the years!

OUR NEW HOME!!

2010-10-05T07:07:00.000-07:00

Down on the farm . . .

So, all I can say is, the Lord is amazing and loves to give good gifts to His children. What an unbelievable blessing to have been able to move here. Lots of space for the kids to play, the "little house" for my photography office and future studio as well as multiple outdoor spots for picture-taking. God is good!

The "Robin Cunningham Photography" sign pointing to my office: :)

The back:

The walkway:

SOCCER!

2010-10-01T19:17:00.000-07:00

Wes and his sports. He loves them. And he loves soccer. :) It is also very good for him . . . great energy release! Not sure how long the soccer sport will last since he will have to start choosing soon, but for now we love watching him grow physically and learning to work with others in this way!

New Family Member

2010-09-10T18:46:00.000-07:00

Meet . . . Ellie. :) Half husky, half lab.

First Tooth!

2010-09-05T18:36:00.000-07:00

September of the 5th is usually set aside just for Mop's birthday . . . and we did celebrate her 60th this year! :) But it is now the day that Wes lost his first tooth! And it was pulled out by none other than his cousin Everett! What a cool combination!

Kindergarten and 2nd grade!

2010-08-25T11:23:00.000-07:00

Well, it's a big year. Both kids in school for the first time. Although I'm looking forward to some much-needed sanity, I must admit I will miss having at least one home each day. I am a sentimental person and new chapters always bring much reflection for me looking back.

I choose not to focus on regret. The days of not being able to get work done because little feet and hands were needing watching almost every minute, of being frustrated by being interrupted every time I tried to get up early in order to have a quiet time, of having to lug 1 or 2 extra people around everywhere I went, etc. . . I admit I do think on those and others (obviously) briefly, but I try and focus on being thankful for all those years at home and pray God used the good for their good and the not-so-good at what I did I pray they are only better because of it, not worse. I'm not so naive as to think they possibly have a few bad habits because of my example, but His Word promises to "cause all things to work together for the good of those who love Him, who are called according to His purpose." (Romans 8:28) Hopefully they picked up more on the positives.

I already find myself gazing sadly and longingly at those momma's in Target and Wal-Mart with their little ones; knowing it was only a few short years ago (or one) that I too was there, able to enjoy those sweet faces. . . . Ahh . . . . And then I'm quickly reminded of what a nightmare it was taking a 3 and 1 year old to the grocery store! Wes and his screaming fits to ride in a certain cart, Gracie complaining the whole time about wanting to go home. . . so maybe I don't miss exactly THAT.

But I do miss the long mornings laying in bed with 2 little ones watching Dora, drinking their sippy cups of milk. I miss watching them play together in their rooms - especially making music with the toddler piano. The funny things they would say, the chubby cheeks I would squeeze, the tiny shoes, the places we could go together during the day when all the big kids were in school . . .

When 2:30 rolls around, I usually have been watching the clock for at least an hour, ready for them to be influenced and played with by Mom and Dad instead of who knows who or what! It is quite a shock that for so long you knew what your child did, went, played with, said, ate and saw every second of every day to the disturbing realization that for 7 hours a day, you have absolutely no idea about most of those things. Talk about the building of your faith.

"For faith is the assurance of things hoped for (for them to glorify God in all they do and say), the certainty of things not seen (that they do glorify God in all they say and do)." (Hebrews 11:1) We as parents can only do so much. And parenting is a slow process of letting go every step of the way. You stop nursing, they start walking, you drop them off at Mother's Day Out, you take them to a friend's house, several days of preschool, and then school 5 days a week ,7 hours a day. The toddler years are so imperative; I've heard it said so many times. And yet our job continues and increases in many ways when they are in school. What you've taught them about being a friend, sharing, talking about Jesus, using "wholesome talk," etc. Now it's show time. But they are still in training. Aren't we all? We're here to "run the race with perseverance," to "fight the good fight of faith." We aren't done until we see our Savior face to face. And so we train and we train our children to train themselves.

May we be able to teach our children in such a way that they too can say the same as Paul,

"For I am already being poured out as a drink offering, . . . I have fought the good fight, I have finished the course, I have kept the faith; In the future there is laid up for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day; not only to me, but also to all who have loved His appearing."

2 Timothy 4:6-8

Colorado Trip - July 2010

2010-07-30T06:25:00.000-07:00

We had a wonderful time in Colorado on our first family trip with our pop-up camper cross-state. I must admit I was quite on edge thinking about the possibilities of bears and making sure food and utensils were put away adequately each meal. But I finally relaxed eventually and we had a great time hiking, picnicking, attending Ranger sessions and making s'mores!

Here are some photo highlights:

Snow in summer!

Momma's first try at cooking cinnamon rolls over the campfire.

Rain won't stop our s'more making!

One of our many lunch picnics while hiking:

I think it's technically a squirrel but we thought more a chipmunk;

they were not afraid to come right up and follow us:

First hike:

First Ranger program; learning about the destructive tree beetle:

LOTS of mule deer:

Fun at the campsite with what we called "sling ball":

Gracie's Baptism & Concert

2010-05-25T12:16:00.000-07:00

We couldn't be more proud or more thankful . . .

(Please forgive the camerawoman -

I was taking pictures and videoing at the same time!):

She sang 3 songs but I only had enough space to record one-

my favorite!

Catching Up

2010-04-05T18:01:00.001-07:00

Wow! Has it really been since October?! I'm going to do some back-dating on this thing.

Let's see. I need to cover Halloween, Thanksgiving camping, Christmas, all the snow, Gracie's bday, the Daddy-Daughter Valentine Dance, camping at spring break, Easter and Wes' bday. Gotta lotta work to do. Good thing I gave up TV for lent (well, for God, but that's a whole other post) and I haven't started back yet. :)

Here we go . . .

Wes' Easter Party

2010-04-01T15:20:00.000-07:00

His last Easter party . . . :(

Sweet baby boy.

Eggs!!

Spring Break!

2010-03-25T15:05:00.000-07:00

Camping spring break with the Skinner family at Eisenhower State Park.

Fishing . . . way to go Kathy!

The kids LOVED their s'mores every night!

The play tent!

Daddy Daughter Valentine Dance!

2010-02-15T15:41:00.000-08:00

Gracie and Daddy's 3rd annual Daddy-Daughter dance . . . always so sweet.

Gracie's 7th Bday

2010-01-03T17:25:00.000-08:00

Her favorite, Sweet N' Sassy, making her own lip gloss . . .

Then off to one of our favorite places, Barnes and Noble for some reading . . .

Lunch with Mop at McDonald's!

Gift time!! Meet Sam, Gracie's new Beta fish!

She wanted a chocolate pink guitar cake, so a chocolate pink guitar she got! YUM!

Could those smiles be ANY bigger! I LOVE IT!!

Christmas!

2009-12-31T18:24:00.000-08:00

Snow on Christmas Eve just in time!!

We got a Wii!!! . . .

With the Eads . . .

In Abilene with the Straders . . .

"For unto us is born this day . . . a Savior, who is Christ the Lord."

Thanksgiving - Camping!

2009-11-23T18:10:00.000-08:00

Our first time in our "new" camper (again, thank you Lord; and thank you John and Bibby!)! We camped in Dinosaur Valley State Park with Greg's family. We set up our camper and slept in it but didn't use it much for anything else since the Eads had their trailer.

The weather couldn't have been more beautiful! What a fantastic time we had hiking, looking at dino tracks, crossing the river barefoot, star-gazing, eating s'mores and Andy's special campfire cobbler!

Halloween . . .

2009-11-01T18:07:00.000-08:00

. . . or as we like to call it, All-Saints Day. Here's our characters:

Gracie even won "Honorable Mention" at her school's carnival!!

A dream come true!

2009-10-31T14:44:00.000-07:00

Our precious friends from church felt led to give us their pop-up camper after we had asked about it 2 different times when they were selling it. We have talked about wanting one for years, but knew it would be way in the future with our financial goals to make first. And then look what the Lord did!!

Thanks John and Bibby! You will be with us on every trip in spirit!

Skating!

2009-10-31T14:38:00.000-07:00

I had the priviledge of taking Gracie rollerskating for the first time at a Girl Scout event. It was a blast! I think I had as much fun and she did! We also took her friend Sydney, who showed her the ropes!

Isn't this the cutest! It's a little "walker" for newbies!

HSU!

2009-10-31T14:33:00.000-07:00

We love us some HSU Homecoming! It's always a full weekend, with plenty to do. Friday night SING, Saturday morning "Kiddie Korral", afternoon football, and seeing old friends - what could be better! Here's just a taste:

Manaw got the best shots at the "Kiddie Korral" while Momma was at a photo shoot. I'll post those if I remember!

Dove Fall Festival - Award Winner!

2009-10-31T13:55:00.000-07:00

My Princess Leia! She won 4th place (Honorable Mention) in her age division! And of course, Yoda makes a great side-kick!

Great blog to share

2009-10-13T19:54:00.001-07:00

Ran into this blog from an email from my photography forum. If you can get past feeling like this family MUST be made up and created by a magazine, then you can find lots of great things from which to glean for your own. :)

http://ourhouseofjoyfulnoise.com/OHOJN/

Robin

A little Saturday afternoon fun . . .

2009-10-03T13:22:00.001-07:00

with pinecone bird feeders! Hopefully we'll do more of these types of things, but I'm keeping NO promises!

Wes' First Soccer Game

2009-09-21T10:44:00.000-07:00

Wes had his first soccer game ever this past Saturday. Daddy had to work and couldn't be there, but Momma kept him updated play by play via texting. ;) Here are a few shots. By the way, my little guy made 4 goals!! He had moves I'd never seen before! (Which I guess wasn't possible since it was his first game!) We're so proud!

I HAD to share this one - I didn't know it at the time, but this was the team we ended up playing and I couldn't get over the cuteness of this little guy! The hair and the glasses are precious!

Another One Bites the Dust

2009-09-02T13:34:00.001-07:00

She finally lost her front tooth at school after Daddy tried to for weeks! Just fell right onto her tongue while working at her desk! Isn't she adorable!

Waste Not or Want Not

2009-08-29T09:56:00.001-07:00

I have always been a simpleton. Less is more. Used is better. I go to the nearest resale shop first when looking for things - anything! I told Greg when we were camping that I could just stay there and live that life. You think I'm kidding myself, but it's absolutely true. Do we really NEED all this stuff??

But I love stuff, don't you? I love shopping at junky antique shops. Something you find there was pulled out of a back alley or old farm house and wham - 50 bucks!

Last year we were making twice what we are now. The year before that it was about 3-4 times as much. I can honestly relate to the apostle Paul when he says in Philippians 4:11-12, "for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am in. I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity." Now, I haven't yet experienced as humble as Paul or probably as prosperous as Paul, but on a smaller scale I have. And the thing is, through it, I also know what 1 Thess. 5:18 is talking about - "be thankful in all circumstances" because I am so thankful for both sides, especially the side we're on now of not having as much, of stretching every dollar we get, of seeing our savings disappear before our eyes. BUT (there's that "Holy But" some of you have heard me talk about - I would love to share if you haven't), He prepared us for this time in several ways, and in the exact order needed.

First, Dave Ramsey. That's all that really needs to be said. If you have not read The Total Money Makeover by him, it is a must read for all Americans, all spenders, and especially all credit-users. If we hadn't have read his book first and begin applying his principles, there's no telling what kind of mess we'd be in now. Well, we certainly would have a nicer house, more "toys," and fabulous cars, but we'd also have a tiny savings compared to now as well as payments that would have put us under later.

Next, Greg's second job as a "Right-of-Way" agent working for my cousin; better known as a "land man" in the oil and gas industry. Now there's an industry that makes money they don't know what to do with! We are so thankful for that time because we were able to pay off debt, stabilize our mortgage situation, get rid of a truck payment, pay cash for a car, and save like we've never saved before - and we have always been savers! And YES - I said cash for a car and YES it is possible and YES you can do it too and YES the car has run fine with ABSOLUTELY NO problems for almost 2 years. That's where one's faith and trust in the Lord to bring about change and stability in your finances come in. This is all within a matter of about 18 months.

And now we're actually making less than we ever have in our entire marriage. But the Lord directs our path and orders our steps. So that brings us to now. To wasting not. To learning that Americans are wasters. Sorry - it's true. There's still grace, but let's evaluate ourselves. Our situation has led to me having to re-evaluate myself. You don't mind spending money on better gifts for the kids' friends birthdays or on another pair of jeans at full price or on eating out 5 times a week when you won't notice it in the checking account. But when you will . . . you notice everything.

So what have I done? Here's my list. It may seem small to you, but when you're the one in the house who budgets the paycheck, pays the bills, goes to the grocery store, buys the gifts, pays for the sports and preschool, etc, etc, etc (and believe me, there's a LOT of etc.!), then nothing is too small to take into account. Here's a sampling:

* Not only have I started using the grocery ads and trying to only buy what's on sale, I also get coupons and use them to buy in bulk.

*My kids eat PB&J sandwiches everyday just about. I was getting onto my husband the other day as I was watching him make them each one and was appalled at how much of both the peanut butter and the jelly he was slathering on the bread! He didn't see the big deal. I'd refer him to the above paragraph listing my jobs. I know he'd agree. If he was the one making them everyday I'm pretty sure we'd be going through both 3 times as often.

* I have to buy Gracie a new wardrobe every time a new season hits and she's grown. I always, and always have, hit the resale stores first. And I NEVER buy full price of anything - EVER. Someone is always having a sale. I spent $130 on her back-to-school clothes this year. Guess what I got? 2 pair of jeans, a couple of shirts and a pair of shoes? Nope; try 15 pants/skirts, 20 shirts, and 3 pair of hardly worn boots. Is it really that important that your child be the cutest dressed in the latest styles? I'm sorry, I think the question is more, is it more important that your child have on brand names? Is it worth taking money away from family vacations, your church, or being able to give a struggling single mom a gift card? . . . Really?

Oh, and by the way, that $130 also included a shirt and pair of jeans for Mommy. :) (Old Navy and American Eagle, if you must know.)

*Is there really nothing in your pantry or fridge for dinner? Nothing? Are we lazy or what? Are we gluttons or what? Vegetable night. Beans & rice night. Breakfast for dinner night. All-the-leftovers-put-together night. Every-man-for-himself night. I-had-a-big-lunch-so-I-don't-need-much night. Be creative! And STOP GOING OUT TO EAT ALL THE TIME! (I'm talking to myself here. ;} ) You'd be lucky to eat one meal a day in some parts of the world.

There are probably many more I could list, but those are what come to mind. This year - it's a smaller Christmas. We can get Wes a goldfish and Gracie a rabbit and probably spend under $10 for the animals and the stuff! AND we'd be the coolest parents ever! Cheaper, but not cheaper-looking birthday gifts for the kids' friends. Continuing the grocery ads, continuing the grocery coupons, continuing the resale shopping . . .

Please send other ideas my way! I'm looking to create some inexpensive, easy-to-make Christmas gifts - any ideas?

Less is more.

Who's with me?

Fresh!

2009-08-26T14:27:00.000-07:00

Aaaahhhhh . . . doesn't it feel good when things are just different? A chair is moved. A fresh coat of paint. Different pictures on the wall. I do this often and it makes my whole outlook improve, just by moving things around. Or getting rid of them.

And so I finally freshened up my blog! What do you think? I (with Greg, my new assistant's, help) took the kids' annual pictures - finally - this past weekend. I always take them in the summer, and so I made it by about 6 hours. The first day of school was the following day.

I'm excited about the blog, about how I am keeping up with others' blogs through RSS feed, and about what this school year holds! I am also thankful the Lord is bringing me into who I really am as a photographer. My style is changing, as it will as I continue on this journey and the trends change, and I love how it's progressing! A lot more fun, a lot more creative, a lot more freedom. It's easier for me because it reflects what I'm comfortable with. But it is all for the praise of His glory. I want to never take that for granted.

Life is good. And I hope that I can say that no matter the circumstances (i.e. Monday, Aug 24th >:P). I'm not quite sure I passed that test, so I may be up for another one soon. :)

Our family Bible verse this month sums it up well:

"Be joyful always, pray continually,

give thanks in all circumstances;

for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."

1 Thess. 5:16-18

My Big First Grader

2009-08-25T15:37:00.000-07:00

and my day that wouldn't end.

Well, just to finish the story, yesterday did get worse, unfortunately. And it just wouldn't end soon enough. Why, you ask? Please, let me tell you; because you just can't make this stuff up!

After picking Gracie up we headed for an after-school treat at Sonic for half -price drink happy hour (2-4 in case you're wondering!). I then needed to get to the bank because I also had discovered, embarassingly, that I was overdrawn and needed to cover myself. As I am sitting at the ATM, having already put my card in the machine and looking at my list of last transactions, the ATM sucked up my card - gone! Are you kidding me?!

So back I went, out of the ATM line to pull into the teller line to see about getting my card back. And then WHAM! You know those big yellow metal poles? Yeah. . . . you know, they are made to keep cars from hitting things, so why don't they pad them??? So now I have a huge yellow scrape down the back passenger side of my car.

I was in complete awe of my day. I would have gone to bed right when we returned home to get the day over with but then remembered Wes had his first soccer practice . . .

The kids finally hit their pillows about 8:15 and me about 9:30. Today I have woken up a new woman because by the end of Monday, I was getting on my own nerves!

So on to my Gracie-girl . . . here are a few pics of her first day of school . . .

Notice the flowers & card for her teacher . . . And here we are rushing down the street toward school, which is still several blocks away!In front of the school - notice what's now missing?In the classroom trying to get over not having our flowers & card. :(Yes, it's fake and looks very painful!

But I'm happy to report that here she is at the end of the day -

smiling and bouncing out to meet us!

The Good, the Bad and the Ugly

2009-08-24T07:37:00.000-07:00

The Good:
*Gracie was SO EXCITED about starting first grade today!
*We had a wonderful morning at home getting ready and being ready way earlier than needed.
*We had time to take lots of pictures and laugh and talk before she went to school.
*We are within walking distance from Gracie's school.
*We made it to school on time - actually early.
*Her principal made an extra effort in making her feel special today.
*I was able to visit with moms I hadn't seen in a while at the "BooHoo" breakfast.
*I had the privilege of going on a "Prayer Walk" around the school with other Dove moms.
*I have a bike to ride.
*I am able to be in my house and be on the computer.
*I now have a phone that works - and with the same phone number.
*I have a church directory with phone numbers of friends and church family.
*My son is in good spirits and hasn't asked yet if we can go get Gracie from school.
*My husband has a job and we both have cars that work still - as of today anyway.

The Bad:
*Greg took my car keys to work with him. We realized this as we were loading into the car to go to our first day of first grade.
*We quickly had to walk to school, hoping not to be late; cameras in hand.
*We realized after arriving at school that we had left the flowers and the card Gracie made for her teacher back home in the car.
*Gracie had a meltdown which she never fully recovered from before getting to her classroom and Mommy having to leave.
*Mommy rode her bike - and Wes his scooter - back to school (after thankfully being dropped off first by another mom) to give Gracie the flowers/card in order to give to her teacher.
*I now have to inconvenience someone to take me to Lewisville in order to get my car keys.
*I have no phone numbers in my new phone. An inconvenience, but not an impossibility to find them.

The Ugly:
*Mommy trying to convince Gracie that everything was OK . . . telling her to straighten up . . . making her smile regardless in the first-day pictures . . .
*Knowing there was nothing I could do to make her feel better. Only Daddy can work that magic and he was at work.
*Telling Wes to stop crying the 3-4 times he had meltdowns on the scooter on the way back up to the school.
*Mommy riding a bike.

Well, interestingly enough, the Lord tried His hardest to prepare me. I was in the chapter "Future Grace vs. Impatience" by John Piper. My favorite quote from the chapter that I actually read to Greg last night,

"The key to patience . . . is faith in future grace - the sovereign grace of God to turn the unplanned place and the unplanned pace into the happiest ending imaginable."

Not sure that there will be a "happiest ending imaginable," but, hey, we serve a mighty God!

He also has been bringing the following verse to my attention several times in the last week and a half; 4 times to be exact:

"As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good."

Gen. 50:20

This is sorta what I would consider a small-scale version of what this verse could be applied to, but applicable still the same.

It's interesting. It sounds so vain and so American to say this, but it's like he's stripping me of all my conveniences lately. The phone . . . now the car . . . the house being turned upside down in order to fix the storm damage. There's a lesson in here somewhere.

Patience.

Sacrifice.

Surrender.

Grace.

Mercy.

Guess it's time to stop and meditate on it all while I have the time and nowhere I can go (although believe me there are places I need to go!).

I thank Him for His lovingkindness, His sovereignty, His patience with me when mine is not to be found, His reminders of what's most important, the people and places He's placed in my life - at the right times.

I will stop trying and figuring this situation and trust. After all, that's what I've been trying to teach others lately anyway. Guess He wanted to make sure I truly understood what that meant. I never have trouble trusting Him in the big things - so far. It's the little things such as today where I forget Him. Thank you Lord for reminding me of your ever-faithful presence in our lives.

I'll save the pictures of today for another post . . . thanks for listening - whoever!

The Kissing Hand

2009-08-23T18:52:00.001-07:00

Twas the night before school . . . and all through the house, all the kids were stirring because they were so excited about a new school year!

So it didn't rhyme, whatever! Anyway, We were FINALLY able to slow our weekend down about 5:00 p.m. this evening to enjoy a little peace before gearing up for a new year of first grade for Gracie tomorrow. . . . And in September it will be Wes going into Pre-K!

We read The Kissing Hand together before bedtime. I guess that will also be our tradition. Although I wonder how long that will last with her . . .maybe 4th grade? 3rd? We'll see, maybe she'll always want it read to her! A mom can dream, can't she?! Thankfully Greg read it because I always cry - of course! I have already been emotional for about a week . . . at first not really understanding why until "Meet the Teacher" crept up. ugh.

Us moms always start remembering the times they were a baby during this time of year. As I was holding her tightly as we were giving goodnight hugs & kisses, I was looking around the room remembering that just 5 years ago this month we moved into this house and this was her playroom. Wes was still being knit in my womb and she was toddling about, quietly reading books or listening to JoJo's Circus on CD. We would spend every morning snuggled up on the couch, sippy cup in hand watching JoJo and Goliath. I remember mourning that as my due date for Wes approached. I knew it would disappear quickly with a new baby in the house; and it did.

So now I have to stop myself from all the crazy busyness of life that we each think are so necessary and realize that just as quickly as those baby days have passed, so will these days of school. Especially these days of elementary school when she WANTS and PLEADS for me to spend time with her every second. Someday, some day she will want more time with friends, or in her room alone, or needing to do homework, or on her phone . . . ugh.

But I hope to instill some traditions and an openness in our relationship that even when she's at the age of "Mom, you're so stupid!" that we'll have just as many times of togetherness. It will be different. But as she grows, it will be even more important that we have them. Teaching her what it's like to grow into a godly, Christ-following young woman. It's a delicate process. A process I must prepare myself for now. To be waiting. Watching. Looking for opportunities as she grows to share thoughts without giving advice or demands; or creating any level of unnecessary expectations.

One thing is all that matters. Well, two. And if all she hears, if all she follows are these words from Jesus, then I need not worry,

"'Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your mind, and with all your soul, and with all your strength.' And the second is this, 'You shall love your neighbor as yourself.'"

Mark 12:30

Oh, my Gracie-girl. I love you so much. You are strong. You are smart. You are loving - when you want to be. :) And you are hilarious! I love, love, love you! I AM so proud of you! XXOO

Girls Day!

2009-08-21T18:26:00.000-07:00

Gracie and I had our 2nd annual girls day the week before school. First was breakfast at Corner Bakery - no McD's for us! Then we window shopped around Southlake Town Square. And finally the much-anticipated Sweet & Sassy visit for a mini-manicure! As she sat down for her polish she said, "The is the best place in the whole world!" Gotta love it - what a cutie!

Meet the Teacher

2009-08-21T18:21:00.000-07:00

She is SO excited! We met her teacher tonight, Mrs. Cathy. It's funny being on this side of things. For so long, I was the teacher anticipating my students. Now I'm the parent anticipating mychild's teacher. A lot changes once you have children of your own; I would be such a different teacher.

So here are a few pics from the evening of "Meet the Teacher" - many thank sgo to Wes who took it upon himself to do most of the photographing. I think you'll be able to tell whose are whose. :)

(Mrs. Cathy is the one with her back facing us. Why don't I get a picture with her this night?? Oh, well!)OH! And by the way - did you notice the new specks?! Hard to see here, but oh so cute! I'll take a more "professional" pic and post it here soon . . .

Cousins!

2009-08-19T18:33:00.000-07:00

What a great way to end the summer! We had two separate nights each with one set of cousins.

The first night was spent at "Life's a Beach" in HIghland Village (or Flower Mound?) with Mop, Aunt Gigi, Everett, Addison, & Caroline. Great food, fun and sand play! We closed the place down!

The next evening was spent at the Ranger game with UNcle Ross, Aunt Leslie, Maggie, Jay and Katherine! It was a great game until about the 5th inning when they started losing. I'm not sure I've ever been to a winning game live. Oh, well. The fellowship was great!

Camping Trip

2009-08-10T18:05:00.001-07:00

I'm finally getting around to showing our camping trip pictures and telling a little about the day-to-day happenings throughout the week.

Monday:

Off to Oklahoma to camp at a little KOA off the highway to shorten the trip up. A good beginning to see how we handled tent set-up and sleeping. Not bad aside from no air mattresses and a late dinner.

Tuesday:

Breakfast in the KOA shop, a little hike around the place - then off to Eureka Springs. Little did we know what lay ahead . . .

A blow-out - tire change on the side of the highway and stopping at a little cash-only Arkansas tire shop. heh,heh . . . When we finally arrived in Eureka, the place we reserved just wasn't up to par, so thanks to the iPhone, we quickly found a state park down the road, found a great RV site with lots of room and set up camp! And THANK GOODNESS for the table mosquito tent; or in our case, fly tent! A bit of a pain to get in and out of, but totally worth it to not be eating with tons of flies every meal! Thanks Nathan and Erika!

Wednesday:

Probably our best day! Morning hiking and cave exploring, afternoon "Big Cat Habitat," and evening of enjoying our camp site.

I wasn't expecting much at the habitat, but when you get to be that close to a tiger, lion, bobcat, and jaguar, it's pretty darn cool! I love these pics of the kids! By the way, it was Daddy's idea to put my poor little guy in front the "Goober's" sign since there wasn't a "Bubba." :) Here's a video of one of the cat's that seemed to maybe be hungrier before all the rest:

Thursday:

This was another fun & really full day. I know we all walked several miles by the end of the day. We started the day at Cosmic Cavern, which is rated as one of America's top 10 caverns. Not only does it have beautiful stalagmites, stalactites, etc, but it has 2 "bottomless" lakes - called such because divers used a radar that detects down to 1000 feet and still did not detect a bottom!
Next was shop-looking and exploring the charming town of Eureka Springs. Lots to see and do. It also included a hike up to the Famous Crescent Hotel, which was well-worth the look. Last, we took the kids to see the Passion Play. It was wonderful (despite some kinda amateur speaking) but you DON'T want to miss the pre-play show of "The Potter's Wheel." Fabulous! Greg's comment, "If anyone could make you feel like you were listening to Jesus, it was him." He drew you in and kept you completely enthralled with his message.
Friday:

The last day was easy-going with a little more time on the road than we expected, but still not time wasted. We found a neat little tourist place on a side-road called"War Eagle Mill" where they still make flours for breads using an old-fashioned water wheel run grind machine.

Then we headed off to find a swimming and fishing area on Beaver Lake. The kids LOVED fishing. Thought it would not be enough action, but I think I was the only one who got bored! Daddy's already taken them to Grapevine Lake since we've been home.

The evening was spent at the campsite - actually the kids' favorite spot out of them all . . . s'mores, glow sticks, playing ball, & picking up the campsite for an early morning departure.

Saturday:

It rained again on the trip home, but cleared up about 3/4 of the way there. The Ozarks were pretty with the clouds hanging low.
If you'd like to see the rest of the pictures, please go to Cunningham Family Photography.

UPDATES!

2009-07-03T13:39:00.000-07:00

WOW! It's been WAY too long! And SO MUCH has happened since April! So, I'll go ahead and post without pictures, which I hate doing, but it seems that's the fastest way I can update at this point.

Let's see . . .

MAY
*Wes & Gracie finished school. I cried a lot. I'll miss Mrs. Frederick who taught Wes, knowing no more of my children will have a chance to have her. (Since I don't have anymore and am NOT planning on it!) I hated to see Gracie finish Kindergarten because I know the rest of her school years will FLY by. ;,( She learned SO MUCH under Mrs. Spath and really had a great year. I am SO THANKFUL for all the new people I met - through Dove, through Mom's in Touch, through being room mom at CLC . . . what a terrific blessing!

JUNE
*The question is really what DIDN'T happen!
*Last week of school for Gracie. . .
*Huge storm we got caught in while getting in the car to go to Wed. church. Literally think we were right under a rotating cloud - the proof was in the swirling tree tops and the aftermath (I'll post pics later). Massive tree limbs down on all 4 sides including one on our roof that damaged it enough it create inside water damage. So thankful and humbled by the help we received the next day from friends and family.
*VBS - had a blast teaching music with our pastor's wife. She's a blast and the kids did fantastic on the last day's program!
*We had to say good-bye to our sweet dog, Hoyt. He was our family's first dog, a boxer, who apparently had heart failure. It happened so quick, in a matter of days. We prepared the kids pretty well because Greg and I were the ones balling while going to and from the vet. We miss him very much.
*Lastly, the kids went to my parent's for a week while Greg and I had a week-long 12th anniversary celebration! We started off at the Gaylord on the actual day, being moved up to a suite by a sweet friend who works there! Then we had dinner at Texas de Brazil, then a couple more days of eating out and going to movies. It was a nice change from the previous 3 weeks! Relaxing!

*We also decided to re-start my photography business full-on with Greg by my side, making IT his 2nd job. The Lord has caused some things to work together that makes us feel this is the way to go, so pray for us and call us for a session!

*We ended the month with a trip to Six Flags on an overcast Monday that ended up being almost perfect - not too hot (compared to the 100+ of recent days), short/no lines, and Mop there too!

And that brings us to now . . . the 3rd of July. Summer always ends up flying by after the 4th, but we still have lots of weeks and hopefully a family vacation in the future. I hope to add pictures of the above soon.

Greg's Deacon Ordination

2009-04-06T11:02:00.000-07:00

Words cannot express how proud we all are of Greg in this. God has blessed us beyond measure.

Greg's testimony:

"For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you

will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus."

Philippians 1:6

Wes' 4th Birthday Party

2009-04-06T08:02:00.001-07:00

All he wanted was "to go to the fire station" for his party. Well, that was not possible per department regulations, but we could go on a "tour." So the plan was to have the party at a local Lewisville park, then go to Greg's fire station. But wouldn't you know it that Murphy was well at work that day, and Daddy was on a 6 alarm fire the entire party. We didn't get to go, but Greg ceratinly has a great story (thankfully that he can personally tell) about it.

Here are a few pictures from the rest of the day. Including a few from his first (of many, I'm sure) baseball games.

A little bit of Wes

2009-02-20T10:52:00.001-08:00

Wes had a big month so far! It was his "special day" at school (what they put in place of celebrating birthdays). He also finished up his first "SoccerTots" program. He did great and began his long career, I'm sure, of sports in his future. Daddy got to join him on the next to last day of activities together!

Valentine's Activities

2009-02-20T10:36:00.001-08:00

Since it has been a while since I posted I thought I'd catch up on all the February activities.

We started with the Daddy/Daughter Valentine's dance at Grapevine's community center the first Saturday of the month. They danced, ate, made crafts, rode in a horse-drawn carriage AND a limo! They ended the night going to dinner at Outback! What a Daddy!

I had to put this one in because Wes insisted on opening the door for his sister. I do not know where he gets his thoughtfulness, but it is truly a gift from the Lord! He's only 3 for goodness sakes!

Then we had the never-to-be-missed parties at school, with all the cards and candy. A simple card just doesn't cut it anymore. (I agree that it is almost pointless anyway, especially to children who cannot read!) I finally had to throw away all the candy . . . for the sake of our teeth and my santity!

For the actual Valentine's Day, we decided to start the tradition celebrating our love we for each other as a family; and Greg and I went out on another day. We started with Babe's fried chicken in Roanoke and ended it with chocolate fondue at home. Yummm-yyyyy!

Gracie's 6th Birthday Party

2009-01-25T11:42:00.000-08:00

She's Sweet and Sassy - and so are her friends that helped her celebrate!

See more pictures here: Gracie's 6th Birthday Party

Also a few vidoes:

The Unpredictable . . .

2009-01-16T11:52:00.000-08:00

. . . life of a mother of a boy and the evidence of his influence:

(Try and ignore the loud, obnoxious voice of discipline!)

Snow Skiing

2009-01-16T10:45:00.000-08:00

This Christmaswe were priviledged to have been able to take the kids skiing for the first time, thanks to my mom and dad, along with my sisiter and her family. Aside from the first day's long lines, lesson mix-ups (or lack there of!), and a crowded mountain, we had a great time.

VIDEOS:

Gracie & Wes on skis for the first time.

Greg & Wes skiing . . .

Robin & Gracie in motion!

Thanksgiving on the farm!

2009-01-16T10:37:00.000-08:00

A few days before Thanksgiving we stayed in my sister- and brother-in-laws' trailor at Greg's dad's. The weather was beautiful - sunny 70s in the day and clear, starry nights. The kids had a big time seeing all the animals PaPa helps take care of - cows, peacock, chickens, zebras, cats, bulls . . . fun!

ICE!

2009-01-16T10:22:00.001-08:00

One of our favorite things we did pre-Christmas as a family. Well, it was one of my favorites.

The two little penguins in their parkas!!

Gracie got stuck on the ice slide, so Greg learned his lesson and Wes came sailing down after a big push from Dad!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACIE!

2009-01-02T19:30:00.000-08:00

Six years ago today I was exhausted from 16 hours of labor with my firstborn baby - a girl to our surprise and delight! We had worked, cried, and prayed for 2 years and finally had our baby!

What a journey it has been. My little girl is definitely not so little anymore. I think back to those first months, even couple of years and can't believe we're already 6 years later!

OUR GRACIE

observing

strong-willed

inquisitive

questioning

loving

serious

real

curious

A JOY GIVEN OUT OF GRACE FROM OUR LORD

The verse I praised to the Lord when we knew she was coming:

"You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy,
that my heart may sing to you and not be silent. O LORD my God, I will give you thanks forever." Psalm 30:11-12

Each day we have with her is a day God grants us because of His mercy. May I never take a day for granted.

BUSY!

2008-12-15T19:14:00.000-08:00

Well, not sure if it's been busyness or computer avoidance; I think a little bit of both. Of course, this season is busy for all of us, so I take advantage of the down times, and sometimes create some. If there is something I've learned from being a mom is that I have to be just as intentional about putting down times in my schedule as anything else. And I've learned not to feel guilty about it. I pretty much can now tell when I've moved from being restful and recouping into laziness - very easy to do, especially when it comes to watching the brainless TV!

So, all that to say is that maybe I'll take some of my "down" time that I hope to have soon (hopefully next week when school is out) to catch up on all my blog postings. We've done so many fun things at Thanksgiving and since that I really would like to get up some pictures to share!

So stay tuned for "Down on the Farm," "Thanksgiving," "ICE!," "Holiday Memories," and who knows what I'm missing!

Looking forward to sharing.

2008-11-13T14:54:00.000-08:00

As I was at lunch with my husband today, I became overwhelmed in thinking about and experiencing how God has blessed my family. Greg has 2 jobs -first blessing. I get to stay home full-time - next blessing. AND Greg is home during the day A LOT because of being able to work from home at his second job. Wow! Roof over our heads . . . that we love, cars that are paid off, money in our wallets, food in our pantry and fridge, clothes in our closets, family close by, church and friends. I am utterly humbled and know that we, I, do not deserve these things; none of them.

I have a friend who has struggled lately with not understanding why God blesses some and not others. Although it appears that way on the surface, I know that is not God's intention. His intention always is to draw us closer to Himself. I have to be ready to give up all of the above at the drop of a hat. God requires of His followers full surrender. If my house and everything in it burned down tonight, how would I handle it? Would my life seem to be at its end? Would I blame God? I must be ready to let it all go. But until then or unless that happens, I will praise Him and thank Him for the undeserved material blessings He's given me. I also will prepare myself by drawing closer to Him each day. And if it does happen, I pray that I will react in a way pleasing to Him.

Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For everything in the world—the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does—comes not from the Father but from the world. The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever.

1 John 2:15-17

I love Photoshop!

2008-11-07T11:16:00.001-08:00

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There is a small detail that is different. The second and last are the same picture minus 2 little exceptions! Hint: Look at the faces.

I DON'T THINK SO!

2008-11-07T07:11:00.000-08:00

Read this article and tell me if this doesn't scare your socks off! Parents of kids in public school - WAKE UP! If you are not involved, know your child's teacher well, and don't know what's going on, here's your wake up call!

Greg and I have already decided that our children will be pulled out on the days that they discuss sex ed in class. We will be teaching them ourselves (as we see necessary and fitting - discussion about babies has already reared it's head and been discussed on their level!), and will prepare them for what they may hear at school, even from adults. This may seem radical to some, but unfortunately this is the world in which we live.

"We wait in hope for the LORD; he is our help and our shield."

Psalm 33:20

Halloween

2008-11-06T08:53:00.000-08:00

Just some pictures to share of our fun evening. Can you guess who I was?

And I must give kuddos to Daddy who would NOT let Wes out of the house without being an OFFICIAL firefighter, outfitted with the appropriate gear on his helmet. This required a run Lowe's, velcro, and the use of the table saw and sandpaper. I hope you can appreciate all the work that went into that helmet! And Daddy's "helmet" was a fun time too putting together!

I never realized that firemen put the flashlight on their helmets . . . or the "door wedges!"

Also, take note that Gracie was not "Super Girl" or "Super Woman" but was
"Wonder Woman" despite the large "S" on the front of her outfit! :-) Fun times!

Weary

2008-11-03T13:38:00.000-08:00

I am finding it more difficult to post on my blog because I always stop myself from putting too much of myself out there. And I really don't want it to be a place where I vent or get too emotional.

However, I am dealing with something I know all people deal with, and that is weariness. Weariness can come from many different avenues. It could come from simply being up too late, having a full and eventful weekend, or taking care of a newborn or lots of children at once. But weariness can also come from a deeper place. A place of emotional instability in losing a loved one, changing or losing a job, or relationship uncertainty.

The weariness that I am feeling, as many Christians do, is a spiritual one. And right now I am trying to figure out how long it's going to last for me personally. And the battle is not just one particular thing; it's relational, it's transition, it's change, it's the tongue. Bottom line, it's simply making sure I am following the will of God in ALL that I say and do.

"Therefore, take up the full armor of God, so that you will be able to resist in the evil day, and having done everything, to stand firm." Ephesians 6:13

"Therefore, laying aside falsehood, speak truth each one of you with his neighbor, for we are members of one another. be angry, and yet DO NOT SIN; do not let the sun go down on your anger, and do not give the devil an opportunity." Eph. 4:25-27

"Let no unwholesome word proceed from your mouth, but only such a word as is good for edification according to the need of the moment, so that it will give grace to those who hear." Eph. 4:29

"Be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving each other, just as God in Christ also has forgiven you." Eph. 4:32

"But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not carry out the desire of the flesh." Gal. 5:16

"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things." Phil. 4:8

These verses that God commands of us are so difficult! And of course those are just the VERY tip of the iceberg! To those who think becoming a Christ follower makes life easier is naive! There are definitely times of peace and rest, but look at David, running from his enemies - his own son! And look at Elijah. God gave him rest, but only for a time; a few short days. When you are with God, asking Him to use you, it is never a dull moment. But it is a battle NOT to become weary and NOT to became disillusioned and lost in the details of life on earth. It makes me long for the day I can rest forever in glory with Jesus.

"For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." Ephesians 6:12

"Let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we do not grow weary." Gal. 6:9

And what I am finding is that the battle is harder when it is among the believers than when it is with unbelievers. You realize that you can give the excuse for non-believers that "they know not what they do" because they do not have the Lord's spirit within them to tell them otherwise. You can definitely deal with those whom you know just don't get it. But us within the church (and I mean that as a whole in the sight of the Lord), should know better and do better because we should, and I stress that word should, know what the Word of God says.

More often than not, in our culture anyway, I find that people reject the gospel because of the way they've been treated by Christians. So sad. "By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another." John 13:35

The battle is against the spiritual forces of evil. I must not grow weary of doing good. I must put on my armor of God EVERY day, every MORNING, because only God knows when that phone will ring, when that child will throw a tantrum, or that your nerves are just a little shorter today. You must give Him a chance to prepare you for all the "flaming arrows of the evil one" that will be thrown your way.

And sometimes, we just have to rest in Him and wait.

"My soul, wait in silence for God only, for my hope is from Him. He only is my rock and my salvation, my stronghold; I shall not be shaken." Psalm 62:5-6

State Fair!

2008-10-14T18:05:00.000-07:00

We took the kids to the State Fair of Texas again this year. There was so much to see - and so much to eat! We had a great time, and most amazing was how unbelieveably well and cooperative the kids were! When we said we had to move on from a building or that we couldn't buy something or ride anything else, they took it in stride and moved forward. What a fabulous day that we all enjoyed!

Wes is dancing here - sorry it's sideways!

Happy Retirement Mom!

2008-10-14T17:30:00.000-07:00

My dad, sister, and I threw Mom a retirement party during Hardin-Simmons Homecoming this past weekend. It originally was scheduled for this past May, Mother's Day weekend, but because of my grandmother's passing we chose to postpone it.

It turned out even better because of the extra time, and thankfully so! She deserved any extra special thing we could throw in there for all the dedicated, hard work she poured into her jobs at HSU.

I am so thankful to everyone who was able and took the time to come honor and celebrate all the achievements, through God's grace and will, of this extraordinary woman - my mom!

For ALL the pictures from the day, please visit this link:

Linda Carleton Retirement Party

2008-10-02T11:31:00.000-07:00

Wow!

I can't believe it's Thursday again already! Although after the week I've had, that's what I should be thankful for today!!

Today I am thankful for God's faithfulness to me despite my cyclical devotion to Him. Yes, I'm always Christian. Yes, I do my best at following His Word (key words "do my best"). Yes, I am faithful to serve Him in church and in teaching my kids about Him.

But I am no where near as faithful to Him as He is to me. If I was, I'm pretty sure He would tire from waiting for me to get out of bed in the mornings to talk with Him before the kids wake up. I would imagine He would let me know how frustrating it is that I don't ask Him what He thinks about the family budget, my choices for "downtime," or what I plan on saying to discipline my 3 year old. I'm sure He would like me to tell the repairman, my neighbor, and my friend I've had for 5 years about Him if I could only get past what they would respond to me. But it's God's opinion who matters, and I am to be obedient and always faithful because of my love to Him for what He gave me through Christ Jesus.

"The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;

my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge.

He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold."

Psalm 18:2

LORD, You are my God;

I will exalt You, I will give thanks to Your name;

For You have worked wonders,

Plans formed long ago, with perfect faithfulness.

Is 25:1

School Picnic!

2008-09-27T11:36:00.000-07:00

Friday night was the annual school picnic at Gracie's school - Dove. It was so much fun! It was at the park located next to the school and was so laid back with lots to do . . . hamburgers/hotdogs, dunking booth, music with d.j., glow sticks, sno cones, popcorn, playground, lots of area for football and tag!

We had a great time aside from losing Wes a couple of times! Thankfully, they block the whole area off with plastic fencing and since it's put on completely by the Dove's Dad Club (AMAZING group that I'm proud Greg has joined!!), they set security at all the openings with dads. The dads cook, dj, serve - everything! I feel so blessed to be a part!

Above, Gracie has joined just about all the kids there doing a dance to a song they learned in music class! It's sorta the new electric slide - I forgot the title, but the kids were so cute!

See below for a video!

A Day of Rest

2008-09-25T09:51:00.000-07:00

Today I had few obligations. Both kids had school (for at least half the day!). Greg was home (part of the time). And I was able to work on that never-leaving, always-looming cloud of to-dos following me around day after day. I of course did not finish the list, but at least I was able to take care of things I usually don't get to do, or feel I don't have time to do.

Thursdays have always been my big "day of rest" personally. At church, our Wednesday night activities are, . . . how shall I say . . . overwhelming, a bit chaotic, & full of kids running (literally) on sugar and bent-up steam. So Thursdays are my day of peace and recovery. And I thank the Lord that after my Wednesdays, He gives me restful Thursdays to recoup.

I pray my friends who head-up and join me in those activities also give in to their desire and need of rest on the following day. Sometimes, especially us moms, feel a bit guilty if we take the time to just sit and read or catch a TV show, or indulge a bit on our enjoyments that get pushed aside for all the demands on us. I will say this, though. There is no refreshing like the refreshment of time spent with the Savior. He is our Rock, our Redeemer, our Deliverer.

Nothing else can take its place, even though sometimes its nice to take a "brain-break." I am thankful for my ever-faithful Lord who knows just what I need, and when I need it.

"The Lord will give strength to His people;

The Lord will bless His People with peace."

Psalm 29:11

The Second Tooth!

2008-09-19T14:15:00.000-07:00

We lost our second tooth this week! After trying to pull it before, a squeamish Greg tried again earlier this week and succeeded. Yes, I said Greg, the paramedic, was squeamish. He can handle seeing dead people on a weekly basis (you can only imagine when that includes motorcycles, guns, ropes, bridges, . . . sorry to be so gruesome!), but a loose tooth in the mouth of a 5 year old he can't hardly handle . . .

Anyway, it came out easily because no one around here had the guts to yank, and here she is! A whole new look with each pull!

The Glue

2008-09-19T12:29:00.000-07:00

Well, I missed it, but I'm doing it anyway. This week I am thanking the Lord for my girlfriends. In considering who that entails, I feel very blessed. I had the priviledge of spending time with several of those sweet people this week. In a prayer to bless the food, one of those friends said,"Thank you for friends and being the glue that holds us together." She hit the nail on the head.

I am blessed to have two distinct sets of lifelong friends by my side. The first are the girlfriends I grew up with at First Baptist in Abilene. One of them I was in the preschool class together on up (and have the picture to prove it!). The rest came along in middle sschool. Who would have dreamed those nights in the cabin at camp when we were 16,17,18, talking about what our lives would be like in 20 years would continue on today; still keeping in touch into our thirties. I am so thankful to still have them in my life, no matter how many years and states separate us. (We are now spread between Texas, Colorado, and Washington!)

And the friends that I get to see at least weekly I have made at my "new" church (of 9 years!) in Southlake. They, too, I know are lifelong, and we have been through so much together - children's births, marriage ups and downs, losing loved ones, sickness, near-death experiences, children issues, infertility - the list goes on!

And now the Lord is opening up a whole new world for me as I meet new people at Gracie's and Wes' schools. Being in the "Mom's in Touch" at her school has allowed me to open up to a group of women I barely know, and being the Room Mom in Wes' class will offer opportunities for developing more relationships. But the "glue" is what binds us. The Lord God Almighty is the steering force behind why we give any of our relationships a second thought. It's nice to have people to do things with and talk about school and fashion and have someone to sit with you at Starbuck's. But true friendship is bound by the Father, grown in the Father, and lasts through the Father.

There are many others I am blessed to call friend not included in the groups above, like my sister, mom, sister-in-law, mother-in-law, my friends from college, from high school, from the fire department and others along the way. For ALL of them, I am thankful to my Lord for giving me what I don't deserve in all these precious people. They are "Jesus in skin!"

"This is my commandment, that you love one another, just as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends."
John 15:12-13

What We've Lost

2008-09-13T15:50:00.000-07:00

Though this is somewhat long (10 minutes), it is well worth the watch as not only another remembrance of 9/11, but also to stir the emotions of patriotism and unity, which our country so desparately needs right now.

http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=5374765553e6113a4b9e

We had unity, and now have such division. May this remind us of why we are where we are.

Remembering 9-11

2008-09-11T18:34:00.001-07:00

So here we are, 7 years later. I can still remember what I was doing the moment I found out. I was in the middle of a writing exercise with my 4th graders at the time when my assistant principal came to the door to deliver the news - to me only. We didn't want the kids to know without their parents since many of them had moms and dads as flight attendants and pilots at the school. I still am amazed how the day unfolded. I remember thinking for a moment that this was it; that it was the end of America as we knew it. That was true in a sense, because we've never fully recovered to what we were before.

So today I am thankful for being an American, for being blessed to live in this great nation, for having all the freedoms that I truly, truly take for granted each and every day. The other night as I was falling asleep, a strange thought came to mind. I was so thankful that I could fall asleep peacefully, with my kids across the house, knowing that there were not possibilities of bombs or raids or even men in the streets with guns. I could just fall asleep with no worries.

So I will end with a tribute to why we have and will continue to have our freedom:

http://g.dwgsee.com/wake/index.htm

Take the time to watch.

Take the time to pray.

Take the time to remember.

Did you fly your flag today?

Wes' First Day

2008-09-09T07:29:00.000-07:00

Well, here we are again with another "first" for the year. Wes had his first day of preschool today!

(The boys here are comparing underwear! ;) )

He was so excited and as we walked up he asked if he could go everyday! That makes my heart glad, and is such a flip reaction to Gracie's "I don't want to go to school!" every morning. (Still trying to figure where that is coming from since she has always loved school . . . I think it's her strong will not wanting to "do so much stuff.")

Wes' thoughts before school . . .

Just guess what was his favorite part . . .
(Those who know him best can easily guess!)

He has Gracie's former 3's teachers so I know he will LOVE it, plus he is so social! I must admit, though, that it was hard leaving him; I cried all the way home. Was it because I am still grieving Gracie's move to "real" school and the fact that the shelter Wes was going to be receiving was no longer with her? Was it knowing that I had an empty house to go back to? (Although how many times have I wished just for that very thing?!)

I know in my heart both will have good years and learn a lot. Both have great teachers who are loving and sensitive, although both in their own way. Both are more than ready to continue in their independence toward adulthood with a life built on the faith and trust in Jesus, which is the basic description of my and Greg's job as parents. But is still stinks. The cliche is true when we say they take a little piece of our heart with them everytime they go without us.

It also made me realize that truly, we will not take ANYthing to heaven and in the end, our faith in the Lord is all we have. If our life is built solely around our children, then we will become lost when they leave home (As they should if they marry! "For this reason a man shall leave his mother and father, and be joined to his wife; and they shall become one flesh." Gen. 2:24) . If our life is built around our husband or wife, if something were to happen to them, then we will be lost. If we lose a job we love, a house and possessions to a fire, investments to a crash, it is all for not!

"But you, dear friends, build yourselves up in your most holy faith and pray in the Holy Spirit. Keep yourselves in God's love as you wait for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ to bring you to eternal life."

Jude 1:20-21

The ONLY thing that will always be with us in every circumstance is Jesus and our faith in Him and our assurance of our place with Him in heaven when we leave this earth.

"Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For everything in the world—the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does—comes not from the Father but from the world. The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever."

1 John 2:15-17

So my job is clear now as stated in Deut. 6:6-7 :

"These commandments that I give you today are to be upon your hearts. Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up."

I am to train up my children "in the way they should go" and pray that as the Bible promises "they will not depart from it" (Proverbs 22:6). I'm still trying to figure that one out since I know people & friends who seemingly have departed from what their parent's taught them about the Lord. But God is faithful, so I too must be faithful, teach my children about Him, model as best I can how Jesus modeled, and pray, pray, pray!!

And learn to let go, no matter how my heart hurts.

SEPTEMBER OF THE 5TH

2008-09-05T15:08:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOP!
"September of the 5th" is how Polly's parents would describe her upcoming birthday day, so we all continue in that tradition to this day.

Happy Birthday to Greg's mom, my mother-in-law, and the kids' Mop!

Thankful Thursdays

2008-09-05T13:31:00.000-07:00

OK, it's technically not Thursday, but let's just pretend this week and then I'll get it right next week . . .

So, I had a wonderful incident happen to me today that I wanted to share. It has spurred me in deciding to do a spin-off of my brother-in-law's "My Friday" blog. I have decided to start "Thankful Thursdays." Here's my first. Time will only tell if this will last . . .

Today I was doing my usual errand runs with Wes who was patiently sitting in the back seat, excited to have his turn in Gracie's seat while she was away at school. As I was pulling into my bank's ATM, a friend called to tell me all about her meeting on IVF,which she and her husband will be journeying into in a couple of weeks. This has been a long road for them and being one who had also dealt with infertility I always try to give my undivided attention (of course while depositing a check, driving, and tuning the radio at my 3 year-old's demands).

We continued our conversation, I asking questions and very excited about the possiblilty of seeing twins in 9 months ;), as I pulled out and drove down the access road. As I approached the light, I heard a honking to my left, of course still on the phone. As I look over to see why someone could possibly be honking while coming to a stop, I see a young African-American man in an old beat-up car waving my debit card and receipt at me in his hands!

Oh my gosh! How totally stupid and embarrassed I felt. But how totally grateful I was and in awe of this "random act of kindness" by this total stranger at the same time! We turned the corner, pulled over, and as he handed me the card and paper he said with a slight accent, "I know what a pain in the --- this can be," with a big smile on his face. I thanked him over and over again, and felt I should do more although I knew he didn't expect nor want anything else. He was dressed professionally and it was the end of the lunch hour, so he probably was hurried to get back to work.

"Wow," I thought. "What a complete blessing. God really took care of me just now." And from hearing the only words he spoke to me, I knew he may have not been a Christian. Interesting that God can use even those who don't realize it, or even have a relationship with Him, to do His kingdom work. Not sure that's theologically or Biblically correct, but it's the first time the thought came to mind, at least in a way that made a point.

Since then after thinking about all the details of it, I have realized that man had to of deserted his reasons for being at the bank, and then rushed to watch and track me down. I'm sure he also was taken off course of his planned route back to wherever he was headed. So what caused him to do it? What causes those without faith (again, just an assumption, but still true of some we know of as fact) to do the things Jesus taught out of pure unselfishness, generosity, and kindness; things many Christians themselves have difficulty with day to day?

Whatever the reasons, I am thankful. To him - thank you for putting my needs above your own. Thank you for thinking of another and realizing the "pain in the ---" (his words remember!) it would have been if I hadn't received it back. And it definitely would have been! Thank you for taking time out of your hurried day to make someone else's life easier. Thank you for being a model for all people, everywhere, Christian or not, of what it actually looks like to be Christian.

"Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth."

1 John 3:18

Pops

2008-08-27T06:25:00.000-07:00

Today I'm remembering my grandfather, Charles S. Carleton, Jr., whom my sister and I called "Pops" on the day of his birthday.

He lived a long, full life until the age of 94. I have a special connection with him because we shared the gift of art, he being an architect all of his professional life. And then in his last several years (starting in his 90s!!) he went to class and learned watercolor, painting several landscape scenes, but most thankfully a few of his great-grandchildren. One of Gracie hangs in her bathroom.

I also will remember his love for and being a teacher of God's Word in his church. And after he retired from teaching, I thought it was wonderful that he decided to go to a class of mixed ages, many younger, instead of where it would be comfortable with his own. He never gave in to the idea that age stopped growth and learning. I still fondly remember seeing him dance, in his wheelchair, to tunes from the piano at his retirement home the last year of his life.

And then there were the many wonderful and then difficult years with Reece, "Mimi" as we called her, his wife of 61 years, whom he lovingly and patiently gave constant care to starting in 1989 until she passed in 1999. Their's was a love commitment unmatched before and still yet to see. It still inspires me to this day.

"Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers. But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night."

Psalm 1:1-2

The First Day

2008-08-25T13:31:00.000-07:00

"The days are long, but the years are short."

Saw this quote in a magazine once and thought it captured the exact feeling of what I experience as a mother. This was especially true today as Gracie headed off to her first day of kindergarten.

Awh, man, was is hard to leave her in that room! Not because she was crying (as you can see!) or because I was worried about her in any way, but because my mothering nature to protect and nurture pushed its way through to the top like a seed poking its way out of soil.

Here was the prayer I wrote and prayed to our ever-faithful Lord this morning before I woke her for the day to come:

"I pray for a hedge of protection around her, Lord. I pray that what we have trained her in so far will sprout forth and that she will not depart from it. I pray that she is kind and compassionate to others, forgiving just as God in Christ forgave us. I pray she will be bold in her faith and with grace share the hope we have in Jesus.

I pray that "Your light (in her) would shine before men in such a way that they may see Your good works, and glorify (her) Father who is in heaven."

I realize this seems like a lot for a little kindergartener, but the goal and emotion in all this season of letting go has to do with a new phase in her life; not just kindergarten, but a season of schooling with things to face and overcome that she has not yet had to do up until now (or me!). From here until graduation. It is our job as her parents entrusted by the Lord to continue in her training at home continually so that she will know how to respond to life's ups and downs as Jesus would.

The events and thoughts of the day itself:

What a blessing. The Lord really prepared all of us and gave us a marvelous day. Greg was able to get off from work - praise the Lord! For me personally, that was my biggest secret prayer. I wanted him to experience this day with Gracie and with me. She was somewhat unmoved emotionally all morning - until she walked into her classroom. Then she literally came to life! She was so excited that she could hardly stand it! I think she was glad we were there to share it with her, but at the same time, she was ready for us to leave so she could move on with her day!

The rest I will share in pictures:

Her favorite chocolate chip pancakes for breakfast . . . then on our way to school!

Into the classroom we go . . . Mrs. Spath, her teacher . . . her class!

Greg, Wes and I stopped by the "Boo-Hoo" breakfast. Then on to Starbucks for a little recoup and talk time. Wes waiting for his Sissy!

And they're done! The ever-popular chocolate chip cookie after-school snack!

Here's her post-school interview:

The First Tooth!

2008-08-23T08:28:00.000-07:00

Gracie lost her first tooth! As if starting kindergarten on Monday were not enough for Mama!

Here she is to explain what happened and the pictures to show it:

Scary Part II

2008-08-22T19:05:00.000-07:00

Well, it finally hit me.

The emotion that had been bubbling to the brim, but not quite over, all week at seemingly strange times finally found it's way overflowing last night after Meet the Teacher. I'm sure those whom read this and my FB page may be a little tired of my whinning, but I am just shocked that I have reacted so strongly! I was a teacher. I consider myself a fairly strong person (yes, I know, those who know me are saying - but I did defy death without a tear for several hours!!), and Gracie too has always done so well with transition; eager to try new things and meet new people. I expected sentimental sadness, but not gut-wrenching emotional instability!!

Greg and I had prayed fervently about her school. And particularly all summer about "a teacher who will be best for her." I have no doubt that she is; for we laid it in God's hands, so we know He is "caus(ing) all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose" (Romans 8:28). And we had a very nice and friendly time with her. Gracie even took it upon herself to return to the room after initially leaving to tell her good-bye and give her a hug. Let me just tell you. My little one is sweet - but only when she wants to be. She cannot be persuaded, nor is she known for it by those who know her best. So that moment should give me comfort in knowing that she feels good about school and her teacher. Thank you Lord for that as a reminder of Your work in her little life.

There are other issues that I cannot write about here. Ones that I wasn't wanting to face just yet with her, and still may not have to in the way I am thinking on it now. But the Lord reminded me not only of the verse above, but also Jeremiah 29:11:

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you; plans for a hope and a future."

I know I have a battle ahead. I feel it in my spirit and God has been preparing me for it for a while. But I know this is His plan. He told our family that "you are a city set on a hill . . . let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven." (Matt. 5:14,16) We are up for that challenge, I am up for that challenge, but man, is it hard work. Gracie and Wes will be so prepared to face the world as long as we stay diligent in our teaching at home. You spend all their lives protecting them from all harm. Letting go little by little. And now the baby steps are gone. I feel like I'm throwing her to the wolves!

But . . .

"God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and of discipline." 2Tim. 1:7

Sweet and Sassy!

2008-08-19T11:17:00.001-07:00

I took Gracie last week for a girl's afternoon. We had lunch, shopped a bit, then went to "Sweet & Sassy" for a "Princess Package" - hair shampoo/cut/style, mini-pedicure (or as Gracie called it, a "foot bath"), and mini-manicure including two nail designs and 2 rings! What more could a girl ask for?!

A precious time with my precious girl. I have a feeling we will do this often together. I'm looking forward to it!

Scary

2008-08-19T09:58:00.000-07:00

Received this link to a article in the Star-Telegram in an email today.

http://www.star-telegram.com/242/story/837232.html

Considering my last post about sending Gracie to public school, I thought it appropriate and realize the importance of keeping up with worldviews for the sake of my children and what we are teaching them at home. The battle gets bigger and bigger as Christian worldviews and secular worldviews become easily entangled with thought-processes such as these. How important it is as Christians to be constantly in the Word and teaching the Word to our young ones. Because in the end, when they leave the security and direction of our home, it is their choice whether they continue in their faith. We must raise them to think for themselves in order to have their OWN faith eventually, and not just ours.

I read recently (need to find it and link it) where 60%-70% of children who were raised in the faith and in church DO NOT return to their faith when they leave home. Scary.

For me, I feel Christians just don't know scripture well enough. Bottomline. We don't know it, can't quote it, don't live by it, can't teach it properly, can't apply it, and so then it gets misconstrued, misquoted, misunderstood, etc. We MUST educate ourselves in the most important part of our lives as Christians so we can face the giants of this world and teach our children how to do the same. I say this because I myself was convicted of it not too long ago.

Let's not forget what Paul wrote in the first chapter of Galatians: (v. 6-10)

"I am amazed that you are so quickly deserting Him who called you by the grace of Christ, for a different Gospel; which is really not another; only there are some who are disturbing you and want to distort the Gospel of Christ. But even if we, or an angel from heaven, should preach to you a Gospel contrary to what we have preached to you, he is to be accursed! As we have said before, so I say again now, if any man is preaching to you a Gospel contrary to what you received, he is to be accursed! For am I now seeking the favor of men, or of God? Or am I striving to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a bond-servant of Christ."

Obviously reading the Bible itself with an openness to the Holy Spirit's guidance and with prayer are what we need to be doing on a daily basis, ourselves and with our children. But here are two books I highly recommend as good resources as to how to do this better as parents:

Going Public: Your Child Can Strive in Public School by David and Kelli Pritchard

The Ministry of Motherhood by Sally Clarkson

We're so concerned with how smart our children are, if they are the best at their sport, if they can play a musical instrument well, if they know at least 2 languages. But what about whether we will be living with them in eternity? Whether they will see all the gifts God has given them to be used for His Kingdom, for His glory instead of only for their own monetary gain? Our focus has shifted too much toward ourselves and our own ambitions instead of what God thinks, why God created and gave us these little beings to care for and train.

Summer Wind Down - School is Coming!

2008-08-11T12:16:00.000-07:00

Our August has been slow, so I haven't had much of anything to post, so I figured I'd just type up some thoughts about summer's end, which means a new school year beginning.

For me, this is a whole new territory, a whole new life I'll be living. My baby is going to kindergarten. I told someone not too long ago that my life seems to proceed in phases of 5 years. Greg and I were married for 5 years before Gracie came along, we lived in our first bought home for about 5 years, and I worked part-time at my church in an After-School program for 5 yeaers until I felt the Lord leading me to stay home full-time as Gracie sets off for school.

Lots of emotions and thoughts have been passing through my mind this last week as we count down to only 2 full weeks left of summer break. First, being the anal perfectionist that I am (hehe), I am frightened that I will miss an important tradition, a special opportunity, or a simple tip as we prepare and ready for this all-important, never-will-forget first day of kindergarten of my first child. So, anyone reading this who does this school preparation thing every year and has some tips, tricks, and special traditions, please email me!

Second, as I was reading my devotional today (The Ministry of Motherhood - I highly recommend this one!), another emotion fell on me like a down-pour of heavy rain. My influence on her is changing, it's going to be limited. Now I realize it is my choice how much influence I have on her. I realize her dad and I will still be the most important people in her life, no matter what she says as time passes, but the thought of our time together shifting from all day and night to mostly night can be a scary thought, especially when sending her to public school.

Granted, it is a wonderful school, highly "rated" with rave reviews of the principal, but I will now have to deal with the constant battle of having to say, "yes, but we believe . . . " It's an exciting challenge, and one Greg and I prayed very thoroughly about. But also one which is very daunting in this day and age. But it will certainly prepare her for the world she will face upon graduating, so with that I am thankful. And so . . . , I put on my battle clothes, the "armor of God" because I know He wishes to use our family in great and mighty ways if we only are willing and stay constantly prepared for what He puts in our path.

Summer Synopsis II

2008-08-01T18:04:00.000-07:00

JULY:

July was filled with trips and more weekly summer excursions. Gracie and Wes spent a week with cousin Katherine at Manaw and Pop Pop's, but not before a fun day with Mop!

We also stayed in College Station for 3 days at the annual Firefighter Olympics. Daddy played soccer for LFD. And man, was it stinkin' hot!!

What has ended up being the biggest story of the summer was our whitewater rafting trip to Colorado we went on with the Stith's while the kids were in Abilene. Overall it was a fabulous trip. I won't go into too much detail (it deserves it's own blog!), but let's just say we're glad to be alive. Believe us when we say you DO NOT want to swim in a level 5 rapid on the Arkansas River in the Royal Gorge. All 4 of us are truly blessed to still be here!

There are a few favorite videos that I'd like to share as well:

First, a taste of Gracie and Wes' gymnastics class.

The best show of Pop Pop you'll ever see!

(Sorry, I can't figure out how to rotate it!)

Summer Synopsis

2008-07-31T09:21:00.000-07:00

I have finally started a blog! This was a new years' goal, so I am excited I actually accomplished one!

I figured I would begin with a summary of our summer so far, so here it was:

JUNE:

It was a fun-filled month including a horse camp, a visit with cousins, Vacation Bible School, swim lessons, and gymnastics.

The next week was we headed to Lousiana to clean out my grandmother's house. She suddenly (well, within a 2 week time frame) passed away in May. It was a blessed time with Mom, my sister, and all our kids. I was glad the cousins got some quality time together. But I considered this my 3rd home, next to mine and my parents'. It's all I've known for 33 years and I will miss the visits I had with Gangang there - the Christmases, the summer get-togethers, breakfasts at Strawns' and lunch at Jaquline's. I miss her smile, laughter and her latest gossip as we sat up late visiting in the living room.

This was the last picture I took of her in March.

We then had a week of VBS partnered with swim lessons in the afternoon.

(By the way, Wes was the ONLY boy with a grass skirt on. Wow, was Dad proud!)

Swim lessons continued along with gymnastics and enjoying our new freedoms with all that summer has to offer!

Six Flags -one of our favorite family fun places!